I have an associates degree in fashion design from FIDM, and I worked for a few years in the fashion industry in LA. But I felt so drained and exhausted every time, I would quit and go on missions. I did that 3 times and went to missions in South Korea, India, and Haiti. Then I realized maybe I don't want to do fashion design?
The way the fashion industry is done in LA seemed so unsustainable, I worked as an assistant designer and sales. We would prepare a rack of new samples/designs for the buyer, but the buyer would end up choosing only 3-5 designs from that rack. I thought it was such a waste of time, and I was being told what to do constantly. Even in the design process the buyers would email us what they wanted, I thought that maybe being a buyer might be more fun. But I know even buyers that don't like what they do.
Another aspect of why I left is because I always had the dream of doing business as missions. I felt so useless in just working the day to day, there are so many ways we can impact and change the world and I wanted to pursue that dream. But that dream slowly died down after working in the fashion industry, also because I had lost my mom back in 2010 and she was a huge part of my dream. She was the one that was cheering for me and my dreams.
Recently this past year I feel like the Lord is bringing back those dreams into my life. I am uncertain at how those dreams will be fulfilled, but I know that God gives us the desires of our hearts. I look forward to where the Lord will lead me as I continue to delight in Him.
Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4